As I watch my oldest daughter grow, I am taking a lot of deep breaths as I see that she is not a baby anymore. I have a preteen in my home. The tiny, jaundiced, crying baby I brought back to a one bedroom apartment 11 years ago is now showing all the signs of becoming a young woman. More than that, she’s picking up a lot of my mannerisms and behaviors. She crosses her legs like me. She wants to wear her hair like me. She wants to wear MY clothes. I am, in fact, looking at a little reflection of me. There’s a lot of her daddy’s personality bubbling around inside of her, but as far as the type of woman she’s becoming, she’s being molded by what she sees from me, her mother.
I love that my daughter imitates me. It’s an honor to see that! The trade off is that sometimes the reflection shows the not so good stuff. The tone in my voice when I’m annoyed...she’s picked up on that. My tendency to be a perfectionist...yep, I see that in her too. Her impatience with things that are difficult...we’re two peas in a pod. As much as I’m honored by her imitating the good stuff, I’m often convicted by the other things I see. Though I’m not striving to be a perfect mother, I am striving to be a mother whose example is one worthy of following.
As my daughter walks along side me, I am now seeing how the Lord has granted me a wonderful chance to be a living example of what it takes to follow Christ and stay on the narrow path. I am reminded of the words of Paul when he said, “Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me.” (Romans 7:20) This Christian life with all its blessings, does indeed come with sin and suffering. If there is one thing I pray my daughter sees, it is a mother whose life is surrendered to Christ. I hope that when the war between my flesh and spirit causes me to stumble, she will find her mother repenting to her Lord and being amazed at his continual grace. When it’s all said and done, I pray that not just my oldest daughter, but all of my children would see a mother who is determined each day to follow Christ and to obey him even in the smallest things.
If our children are a mirror of us, what are you seeing reflected back at you? It might be challenging, but take some time to watch your children and listen to them. You may be amazed at how much of you has poured into them and how it spills out in your home day to day. May the Lord bless you today and may you reflect his image to the world.